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lilaznchick
Aug. 12th, 2007
10:00 pm - a very interesting question...
how do u know if the person that ur w/ is the right one? what if the person u were meant 2 be with is someone that is right in front of u and u didn't even see it? do u risk everything? or let things be? u have one choice. one chance. that could change ur life forever...
and mistakes are not allowed...
what would u do?
Jan. 5th, 2007
05:19 pm
ok, i'm writing on here cause i can't write in my xanga cause well, this is about tyler n i can't have him read about what i'm gonna write cuase he knows my xanga. newho yeah.
so yeah. came back a lil while ago 4rm going out w/ him. we went 2 watch Freedom Writers which by the way, is now 1 of my most fav. teacher movies. but uhh i guess during that time, i just went sorta bleh. like i don't know nemore. about us that is. i'm lost sorta n i don't wanna make a mistake or nething cause i might really b stupid u know? mayb i'm just overreacting? n yeah...ok so what happened was! it turned out that like, i guess he was suppose 2 work in the morning or whatever, n we, or i or whatever, didn't know that he might've had 2 work in the morning. n like, he texted r coworker back saying that he was in the hospital... n i like couldn't believe it! like he's way different 4rm me. always lying n doing things i wouldn't do. that basically ruined the mood. like he was trying 2 hold my hand but i wasn't 2 in2 it. like we just ended up keeping 2 r selves. n afterwards, i was real quiet. he kept askign what was wrong but i didn't tell him. n i started thinking...mayb we should break up. cause like i don't know. i don't know nemore. like it can b a mistake breaking up u know. like augh! it's just confusing cause i dont know what 2 do. n 4 the first time, i didn't kiss him bye...that was a lil weird. cause when he usually drops me off n we don't kiss, he'll get out n kiss me but not this time. i think he knew i was mayb irked @ him...
like i don't like 2 think it, but i think he sorta knew that he had 2 work in the morning n it makes me feel i dont' know. casue like it's nice that i guess he wants 2 spend time w/ me but @ the same time, i don't want him 2 have 2 do all this stuff 2 go out w/ me! like if i put myself in his shoes, 2 choose between him n work, i would most totally choose work. i mean, i'm sorry! i like him n all but i just...that's just me. if i have the time, i would go out w/ him but i don't. n i wouldn't go 2 that extent. like if i have school vs. spending time w/ him...am i a messed up girlfriend? he told me not 2 worry cause his problems r his problems but geez! it's like, what if he gets fired?! just cause he would rather spend time w/ me? it's sweet...but man! i'm most definitely confused right now. i don't know what 2 do. n i don't wanna mess up nething.
so that's what i've done so far. on my last friday. my last weekday of winter vacation. have a good quarter @ school every1. will miss u lots
Jan. 1st, 2007
01:13 pm - whoa...
so my last entry was way back in '04...n that's hecka crazy. but i'm just "updating" cause well, yesterday i took a cool pic that every1 wants so here it is hahahah!
Jun. 10th, 2004
08:56 pm - Last day...
WHOA! last day of school...well, second 2 last 4 seniors! i just can't believe it...i was signing varun's yrbook in 4th per. n i almost started crying...it's so sad. this whole thing. like it doesn't feel like it's the end but it is.
yesterday, 2 of my gfs @ rop left. they were HS students n when i hugged them, i started crying. right smack in front of the door. i was crying...they were all trying 2 calm me down n said that thye'll visit. n then i thought, oh shit. i'm hecka gonna cry @ grad. i can see it now. me hugging tiff. n crying. shit. i'm trying 2 like jink myself cause last yr. b4 grad. i was like 'i'm hecka gonna cry i mean...come on...701 was graduating! hahah' but @ the ceremony, i didn't. so i'm hoping that if i say that i'm gonna cry this yr, i won't actually cry...@ least i hope not. sarah was gonna do my make up that day but...i don't know...n then when i grad. 4rm rop. cry again. it's jsut so sad!
2day i went w/ my mom 2 watch the class of 04 graduate 4rm her school. i almost started crying when the val. talked cause she was one of my mom's old students so i knew her. so sad. can't believe that next week, that'd b us...saw some ppl that i knew 4rm last yr. n they said hi 2 me. also saw the guy that i thought was cute hahah he like looked @ me n walked away...awww.
i asked my sis. if she'd scream 4 me @ the grad. n she said yeah. hehe i know that when she graduates, i'll b screaming like a crazy woman. i do not care. i screamed last yr 2. hahah
raging waters was fun. heheh HECKA FUN. i don't know which ride was the best. tiff, amy, namrata n i rode on like every ride @ least twice excpt 4 the ones where u just go w/o the tube. heheh great great
2morrow's my bro's b-day...n i totally 4got. hahahahah i'm mean.
Jun. 3rd, 2004
04:23 pm - 6 more days of school!!! AUGH! 6 more days of school!!!
right now i'm looking @ a mortgage calculator. wtH is that?!?!?! yeah, econ. budget project which i have no idea what i am doing whatsoever
freida n tiff. says i should update this more often...YEAH
tiff. n i, ok, mostly me, r gonna do something EVIL. plain evil. muahahhahah actually it's not THAT evil. but it's mean. it doesn't seem that mean, but...it's not nice. hahah it's so not my fault though. this person started it n well, sorry i have 2 b a B**** about it but it's rude. n u can't expect me 2 b nice 2 some1 that's rude. they know what's going on yet they choose 2 not say nething n well...what goes around comes around. but 4 every1 else...it's gonna b FUN! heheh
during 4th per. 2day, the class went 2 watch some dance recital in vahalla. not that many ppl were there. but 1 of the songs ppl danced 2 was "man! i feel like a woman" which i was really controlling myself not 2 sing @ the top of my lungs. reminded me of jen's party, where i sang like a crazy person n senior ball where again, i sang like a crazy person. it was fun during that song @ senior ball though. cause i was singing n when the chorus came "...Men's shirts-short skirts..." i pretended 2 wrap a shirt around me n w/ the skirts part renee n i both lifted r dresses up a lil. hahahah funny stuff. i went crazy on that song. n then went back 2 sleep. n OH OH! i finally know waht that 1 song was that thye played @ prom! i think it's called the cha cha slide. i'm gonna download it n play it hecka times. hahah
jing n tiff. think i'm like the only person that will look good in my bathing suit @ senior picnic...which is SO NOT TRUE! i hate my legs. or, well, my thighs. i think they're 2 big. who else is going 2 picnic? stupid vincent who was trying 2 scare tiff. on wed. saying bad things...
yearbooks r out 2morrow. n u know what? i'm gonna take 4ever 2 sign ppls. even the lower classmens cause this is the last yr. n what u write has 2 b all meaningful n everything u know? like...all...beautiFUL! yeah. so...tiff. asked me 2 sign hers wed. but i said i'd do it on thurs. but then i said i'd do it over the weekend cause like...u have 2 think what ur gonna say. in r case u have 2 like put everything that's happened in 3 yrs. all 2gether on 1 pg. not enough. but 2 bad we have 2 make it fit. so yeah...have 2 think about it. oh yeah. NOTE: THE FIRST PAGE OF TIFFANY'S ADDITIONAL PAGES IS RESERVED 4 ME...IF U WRITE ON IT...I WILL B VERY MAD. but i can't do nething about it so please b nice n don't write on it. n i don't wanna write "reserved 4 jlow" on it cause then, it's just ruined.
thank u, have a nice day
there! did i write a lot?
May. 27th, 2004
09:23 pm - QUEST!
AUGH!!!! i passed QUEST!!! muahahhahahahah. so happy. it's really sad though cause like b4 i went in i was crying. i don't even know y. i wasn't really nervous or nething. but tears just started coming. i was like wth? n then i went in. n it was weird cause when cain shook my hand i felt like crying all over again! i started off really bad n everything cause i guess i was nervous. n @ times, i'd smile cause tiff was sitting in the back trying 2 cover her laugh...PSH! but when i finished i was like
these r the ppl that i'd like 2 thank:
tiff: even though i hugged u last, i thank u so much 4 ur moral support. sorry that i couldn't b there 4 u though. oh, n thanks 4 laughing during my speech. i hecka saw that.
namrata, jen, renee, joyce, n janey: 1. congrats joyce! n 2. thanks u guys! i feel loved!
see ya'll on tues! have a great 4 day break! next week: yrbooks!
Apr. 7th, 2004
09:32 pm
WELL! joy joy haven't said nething in a while.
SO! now i'm starting 2 wonder if i should go 2 senior ball or not. don't say i should if u don't know my prob. it really sucks. i mean, go 2 senior ball, which i wanna to, n end up all f-ed up. or NOT go 2 senior ball, miss out on something i might regret n save myself a lot of hurt? tough choice. my mom said that she knows i want 2 go, yet she doesn't want 2 see me hurt. after this yr. is over, i will b gone. vanished. the only reason y i still want 2 school 2 last is so i can go 2 ROP on sat.s it's a joy. but neways. this prob. really SUCKS. n manaf says that i can tell him but i told him he wouldn't understand n he was liek 'try me' but i didn't. there's no pt. what's he goign 2 do about it? nothing. cause nobody ever does nething. just like b4. all over again. y must i go through all this CRAPNESS 4RM EVERYONE!!!! WHAT DID I DO?!?!? WTF IS UP W/ MY LIFE?!?!
Mar. 25th, 2004
11:13 am - Movies
WHOA! just checking out the upcoming movies n guess what! Pirates of the Caribean is going 2 have a sequel! WOW! how exciting! heheh orlando's cute on screen but it's really weird that his characters' name is WILL turner
hellboy sorta reminds me of LXG
aww ella enchanted is starring anne hathaway. u know, i remember reading that book when i was young. i realized that anne plays like roles of princesses (princess diaries) yeah i know it's only 1 but it still seems sorta a lot. but i think she's pretty.
Mar. 23rd, 2004
08:42 pm
OH MY F-ING SHIT! oh SHIT! AOIYHE;WAOHEH;FLJBF;ODSUHUEIUFAGEOV8IAOH;F
CRAPPNESS!
i'm really pissed now. i've been on this comp. typing a long a$$ entry n i move the mouse n my bro hooked up that stupid mouse thing that has the back button on the side where ur thumb goes n i accidently hit it n everything deletes! GAH!!! stupid THING! i hate it!
it's official! i do not have a date 4 senior balL! wooohooo! hahah yes! ur probably wondering y i'm so happy. WELL u see, it's like i wanted 2 go w/ this 1 guy. like i really wanted 2. but he said no. n so it's like i'd rather go alone than w/ some1 else. it'd b sorta weird. i sorta think i just lost a friend though...yeah, it'd b sorta funny cause i'd b the 3rd wheel (more like oh...7th wheel) but that's ok. i've been 1 4 the past year or so, so waht's 1 full night goign 2 do? actually, i might go completely insane. but that's ok
actually i realized...a WHOLE day. practically 24 hrs...oh shitness.
as kel would say: may the good lord bless ur(my) soul
jimmy told me something on sat. that i was like 'wow, that's deep' haha he said, "when ur here (ROP) u make all these friends n everything. but as soon as u graduate, it's all over. no 2 comes 2 visit or remembers u. like nothing existed. just like high school." seriously sounds like sam. which is y i love him yet @ the same time want 2 strangle his neck. i'm excited about graduating 4rm high school. get away 4rm all this drama. bleh i think i'm goign 2 b really sad about graduating 4rm ROP though. it's like a part of me is there in that school. it feels really weird.
i like 2 sleep i want 2 go 2 bed now. it's like 8:52 hahahah! ok i'm leaving now
Mar. 18th, 2004
04:55 pm - QUEST
omg. i'm SOOO HAPPY right now. i can like scream! so happy baout what? quest! hahaha yeah, i know, that's a first. well, after what hillier said 2 me this morning which made her my not-so-great-teacher nemore it's really made me piss. but NOW! i'm so happy cause the lady i was trying 2 reach @ the humane society called me back n i made n appointment 2 volunteer there! eheheheheh YES! i have a sudden calming feeling inside...
I WILL GRADUATE!
everytime that i see this dude i get all like disgusted. sorry, even if he is my friend. hate 2 b mean but...his fault.
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